Philip Jason
As I pick the paw paw from the tree,
the slow ripples in the bark remind me of certain religiosities It is strange how conversations about sin rarely overlap with conversations about the physics involved in harvesting fruit. To me, gravity is a moral inspiration, the way it pulls on the smallest particle of dust with the same vigor it employs when reaching for the paw paw. The universe, on the other hand, is scamming us all. It’s not expanding; it’s falling toward nowhere. Hard to blame it. Being clever is exhausting. I am just one speck, but still I watch the tree limb bend toward me like a miracle is happening even though my hand is on the branch. You and I are living in the space the hot star gases made for themselves and all we can do is mash ourselves into each other one fist at a time The wailing fox that stalks itself in the woods behind my house attempts to give me advice: Do not let adversity make you feel special, it says Do not let your petals pave the way for rotten fruit It reminds me of the gases dying in the stars and their elemental corpses, which line the universe like lipstick. Then it tries to tell me that Gravity is a spasm in the lumbar spine of stellar history; I wail back No, it is the anger we feel because everything is leaving us! Oh my, how the disbelief is visible in the custard of the fox’s fur (it shares a certain glamour with the face you wear after I offer you the salted drops of rain that fall from the secrets you keep), but hey, I am not a scientist, I am just someone who cannot fly. And my knuckles hurt as I think of how far away you will be when the universe is finally perfect. |
Philip Jason’s stories can be found in Prairie Schooner, The Pinch, Mid-American Review, Ninth Letter, and J Journal; his poetry in Spillway, Lake Effect, Hawaii Pacific Review, Pallette and Indianapolis Review. He is the author of the novel Window Eyes (Unsolicited Press, 2023). His first collection of poetry, I Don’t Understand Why It’s Crazy to Hear the Beautiful Songs of Nonexistent Birds, is forthcoming from Unsolicited Press. For more, please visit philipjason.com.