Marie C. Lecrivain
What Agonistic Edge?
Disconnect has become a way of life. –Alicia Winski
You ask me how it happened;
how did I become less human
than you anticipated?
It’s not a question of DNA.
Ours are entangled as briars
overgrown for a century,
and I can’t say I know what,
or when the precise moment occurred.
I can tell you what it feels like
to watch my soul unravel from yours,
a spiral of lazy smoke that meanders west
in search of who knows what,
and like you, I’d love to know why
because being emptied out
is a long and boring process.
Days go by where I lighten
micron by micron. I’ve found
I’ve limits where I once assumed
I contained an expanding universe
of cruelty and wonder.
You ask why?
It’s all I have left.
George Carlin’s Terrarium
1.
Tonite, it’s raining again,
a sound that’s become
a sluggish flow of liquid
pushing through
a half clogged drain.
I open my window to listen
to water rushing through
the concrete confines
of Ballona Creek.
There’s still movement
among those of us
brought to a standstill.
I wish I were a drop
moving with others
into the womb of the ocean
or the earth.
2.
George Carlin once joked
about the trouble,
while traveling,
of finding a place
to put your stuff.
From house to suitcase,
backpack to back pocket,
the space starts to shrink.
We take what we need,
and fret over what’s left behind.
3.
I woke from a dream
of holding the planet
in the palm of my hand,
a blue green marvel
sealed in a globe of glass.
I’d nowhere to put it,
so I let it roll out of my hand
and back into the universe.
I wonder if this is
what it’s like to be
more than human,
but not yet a god?
Marie C Lecrivain is a poet, publisher of poeticdiversity: the litzine of Los Angeles, and an ordained priestess in the Ecclesia Gnostica Catholica, the ecclesiastical arm of Ordo Templi Orientis. Her work has appeared in the Chiron Review Nonbinary Review, Orbis, Pirene's Fountain, and other journals. She's an associate editor for The Good Works Review, an author of several books of poetry and fiction, and editor of Gondal Heights: A Bronte Tribute Anthology (copyright 2019 Sybaritic Press, www.sybpress.com).
Disconnect has become a way of life. –Alicia Winski
You ask me how it happened;
how did I become less human
than you anticipated?
It’s not a question of DNA.
Ours are entangled as briars
overgrown for a century,
and I can’t say I know what,
or when the precise moment occurred.
I can tell you what it feels like
to watch my soul unravel from yours,
a spiral of lazy smoke that meanders west
in search of who knows what,
and like you, I’d love to know why
because being emptied out
is a long and boring process.
Days go by where I lighten
micron by micron. I’ve found
I’ve limits where I once assumed
I contained an expanding universe
of cruelty and wonder.
You ask why?
It’s all I have left.
George Carlin’s Terrarium
1.
Tonite, it’s raining again,
a sound that’s become
a sluggish flow of liquid
pushing through
a half clogged drain.
I open my window to listen
to water rushing through
the concrete confines
of Ballona Creek.
There’s still movement
among those of us
brought to a standstill.
I wish I were a drop
moving with others
into the womb of the ocean
or the earth.
2.
George Carlin once joked
about the trouble,
while traveling,
of finding a place
to put your stuff.
From house to suitcase,
backpack to back pocket,
the space starts to shrink.
We take what we need,
and fret over what’s left behind.
3.
I woke from a dream
of holding the planet
in the palm of my hand,
a blue green marvel
sealed in a globe of glass.
I’d nowhere to put it,
so I let it roll out of my hand
and back into the universe.
I wonder if this is
what it’s like to be
more than human,
but not yet a god?
Marie C Lecrivain is a poet, publisher of poeticdiversity: the litzine of Los Angeles, and an ordained priestess in the Ecclesia Gnostica Catholica, the ecclesiastical arm of Ordo Templi Orientis. Her work has appeared in the Chiron Review Nonbinary Review, Orbis, Pirene's Fountain, and other journals. She's an associate editor for The Good Works Review, an author of several books of poetry and fiction, and editor of Gondal Heights: A Bronte Tribute Anthology (copyright 2019 Sybaritic Press, www.sybpress.com).